O M G.you're here!I feel so happy for you(:

Saturday, May 30, 2009, 6:02 AM

i've been gone so long I just did not notice.
I thought everything was just a game.
But when I really opened my eyes,
my world just came crashing down.
I really believed everything to be perfect.
Now I've lost what once was so dear to me.
HOW?
I thought I did everything right?That i tried?That I bothered??
about all the yous out there.
But then I come back,and...
have I been THAT easily replaced?
I thought a friend was really something that can never be bought.
But listen.
If you are pushing me aside now just because
of my little trip up,then was I really worth to you at first?

Do you understand how much it hurt?
When I KNEW something was wrong.
And i'm not the first to know.

Maybe my change has truly brought much disappointment.
But i'm just not your no.1 anymore is it?
But damn!I miss alot.
Then I can only say sorry.
Sorry that I can't seem to help anymore.
Sorry.
But you still mean alot to me.

IWILLCHANGE.
it has brought alot of difficulty within the LKT.
idw.
I'm sorry to ____,________,_____,______,______,___.
And there may be more...but i just..I just need to settle some issues.
myself.
for this,
NO PERSON can ever help me.
I need to do this on my own.

5:33 AM

I haven't been blogging in awhile-.-
due to a few reasons
1)busy
2)busy
3)busy
4)busy
5)lazy

(:
yeah.so there you have it.
okay.managed to aga finish my phy ws..
OH YES!YES!I need to complain about homework!
holidays just ain't holidays anymore.
my homework is measured at 1.3cm.
and growing cos I did not measure the notes I have to do.
mainly because they're not done yet-.-
went for the alumni interview thingy today.
not too bad://
and now...zhonglaoshi asked us to go back to school tmr-.-
I was like...WTH!?
tmr is a sunday can-.-.-.-
I can't believe it-.-
yeah.so tomorrow is a sunday and i'm going to school.
what a sad sad life.
:X.
But deborah will not give up in the face of adversity(:
especially since God's by my side((:
I aim to finish my hol homework within the first two weeks of june.
So I can revise in the last two weeks.
FACE THE FACTS DEB.
you suck in the academic sector.
yeah.so.e-learning on mon-thur
is going to suckk as well.
Because the subject is math.
and mrsgoh expects us to learn a whole new topic by ourselves.
woohoo*sarcastic, mind
Let's see...hmm.and I want to lose weight.
NO.let me re-write.
I NEED to lose weight.
I have no wish to be on the list for the abominably fat-.-
I do plan to stay out of that.
yes.okay.And i'm wasting time now.
shitxzx.I've got better things to do..
Like eng powerpack homework for example.
KILL ME NOW,
bye.

BANG!

Monday, May 25, 2009, 5:38 AM

the remaining road is left for me to walk alone with whoever I choose.
God will always be by my side.
But the future ahead is unclear.
So look at me go by myself.And look at what i've accomplished.
Aren't you happy?
:}
mainly,what i'm trying to tell you is......*points down

p.s eh dodo.i'm not sad here uh.(:
i'm like making myself happy(:

it's over but i will miss it so

5:24 AM

:XXXXXXXXXXX

today.I've been not as noisy as usual.
i'm MO-ing(:
HAHAHAH.i'll tell dodo the meaning tmrw.
but pe was oh-so-fun:D
Our group really chiong-ed captain's ball(:
I love catching the balls:}}
reminds me of moi transparent fishballs

and LKT really sweated out fat:]]]]
andandand.I heart dodo(:
LOLOLOL.
we were like going through the english papers.
then everyone started asking
"what's a bagel?"
thenn..i heard dodo say something like
EH!WHEN I PLAYED COOKING MAMA I THINK THEY HAD BAGELS LEH!
omg.she's so retarded(:
:DDbut i heart her.

two more chinese exam papers today-.-
sad.sad.
But nevermind.I need the practice anyway.
pw presentation tmrw!
really gonna pray that we do well(;

no more stuff for you as of today(;
you're moving outta my mind.

Sunday, May 24, 2009, 7:22 AM

HAHAH.this is epic.
wait.
I was like talking to shawn about pw stuff.
then I went away for a moment.
Then when I came back,I saw alot of spams.LOL.damn cute.
Shawn actually kept nudging and nudging-.-
because I didn't accept a file..
he was like"deborah.press accept"
OMG.like I didn't know..HAHAH.
best is when he actually recorded his voice shouting my name
It was like "DEBORAHHHHHHHHH~~"
damn funny can...he sounded so exasperated.LOL

NEXT
dodo was talking to me on fb.
and I asked her
[D]-deborah
[C]-dodo

[D]eh.you liked my status.d'you know what it means??
fyi.my status is debb chew has better things to do than think about THAT.
[C]HMMM..better things to do...THAT.
THAT..
I think it's THAT lah.
.................................................................................
OMG.like can't anyone tell?!HAHAHAH.I was like so-.-
anyway,she got it right..
haha.shhh.
thenn
.................................................................
[D]eh.the substitute [CENSORED]
[C]maybe its anyhow.aiya .that one NO USE lah.
[D]yeah.i was going to say that too.
[C]lol
........................................................................
then I told her I wanted to blog about this cos she was being retarded.
then she said"I'm not being retarded okay."
OMG.i think that is can-.-
as long as I think can already(:
okay.yeah.then
.......................................................................
[D]eh.wait.I think I need to go toilet for a LOOONG time
[C]okay GO.
and when I came back..
[C]good.good thing.can lose weight.
very -.- right
[D]OMG I HATE DIARRHOEA.
lol.i took 3mins.HAH.
..................................................................................
sorry if you found that uhmmmmm..o.k.a.y.HAHAH.
yeah then
................................................................................
[C]PE TOMORROW.WOOHOO.
idk what we will do-.-
[D]LOSE WEIGHT??
[C]eh.fail lah.I think I ate alot of junk today.
[D]high fivve then
[C]lol.
[D]potato chips are my best friend.
How to keep away?
[C]haha.yeah/got go toilet do business i think can balance alr
[D]my poor butt lah
[C]GOOD.I LIKE.
.............................................................................
YEAH.then she went on about the toxic in the body-.-
okay.this purpose of this post is to show the world that
DODO IS DUMB
:D

Saturday, May 23, 2009, 10:28 PM

I was thinking about dodo.
And I just realised I forgot what date it was when we
started dating.LOL:X

And I'm about to have another MOUNTAIN
of overdue stuff again.
How can things move on like nothing happened?
When my life is in the dumps with moi results in the garbage can.
Holidays are coming but i half don't want.
I don't have enough discipline to do my own conscientious work.
I'd probably slack,fail end year papers and my O levels.-.-
IDW.

i feel so -.-at what i'm supposed to accomplish.
expectations..wishes..hopes..even you are pushed to the
sidelines when i'm upset about results
But it doesn't matter.Cause you don't care anyway
and you might even like it better this way.

DEBORAHNEEDSDISCIPLINE

Friday, May 22, 2009, 8:26 AM

IMISSYOU.____.

6:15 AM

EH!DODOBIRD!YOU BETTER GET WELL OKAY.MY HEART PIANG DUNNO HOW MANY TIMES BECAUSE OF YOUR EMO-ING-.-.-.-

Got me so worried today...

But yet,IDK how to show my care and concern(as usual lah)

When I did not bombard you with questions,know that it's not because

IDC.But it's kinda like IDK how to care.When I don't do anything,it does not mean that I don't think of things to do.When I crack cold jokes,it's because idk how else to make you smile.ILY.C:

okay..school was tiring today*yawn

and.%$&(**&*

sad lah.

but went out for lunch with some of the LKT and

andy,pengchong,zichao,jen kiat and allan

was laughing alot (as usual)

I'm getting tired.

i wish i didn't need to do so much.

But yet,life goes on.

as the day draws closer...my mind starts to wander again

Thursday, May 21, 2009, 7:20 AM

wow...a miracle happened??
not the kind that I would have dreamed for..
but a miracle nonetheless..(:

ILY dearie(:
I'll MAKE SURE something happens:D

4:22 AM

hey.results today.take a look at the crap I got.
But I do remember that God was present during my exams
Helping and guiding me all the way.
I forgot when my mid-years actually were
so I only started studying just a week before the exams-.-
With that in mind,God is all powerful as my only help and Saviour(:
English-B4
Emath-C6
Amath-D7
Chem-A2
Phy-A2
Combined humans.(ss&geog)-B4
Lit-A1
Higher chinese-C5
-.-sigh.I hoped for better actually.
and my L1R5=19
pretty messed results compared to some people.
And if people say your greatest opponent is yourself,
well,I thought I could do better too.
I tried.I really did.
I did loads of praying too.
But maybe it was just not enough for myself
or even for the people who care about me.
I know EVERYONE in school is pretty upset
about results as well.
But all I can say is,everything happens for a reason.
There is a reason that i'm low in the dumps right now.
It's so I am able to soar later on.:}}

anyway,enough about that.
went to Ikea today with rach,lj,lala and dodo:}
HAIZZZ.
for what???
to get a really low class potty-.-
for lj's niece-.-
IKNOWYOU'RE READINGTHISLJ:/
but enjoyed myself thoroughly and forgot my results for awhile.
(:
photos will be in fb.
my dear dodo will upload.HAH.dirty work for you m'dear.
and..uhmm..sorry.idk why I laughed non-stop
at the tm kopitiam.:/
I just got high i suppose.

well,let's mug people:////
at least,i NEED to.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009, 5:06 AM

1)my lover is still not back from her date-.-
2)i miss dodo..(she's not online..GAHHH!)
3)my mom managed to get those pills for me!(yay)
4)i like the demi lovato song--until you're mine
5)i miss school
6)i'm damn happy there's school tmrw
7)today has been a waste of my time
8)i will know some of my results(ahhh)
9)i LOVE God.
10)yay.i managed to hit 10 points(:

12:59 AM

i'm bored.
Let's have some eye candie.
anyway,I'm separated from my lover,
so might as well look at some other people((:
he's so HOTTTT can(:

ahhh..he looks like an angel here*points down

OMG.those muscles....ahhhhh:DDDD

this one is damn cute!*points down

how i wish you were with me.here.now.but nevermind.

12:47 AM

wahhh..beauty sleep ahh.
I woke up at 2.15.OMG.so late can.
and because of that,someone called me a pig-.-
ehhh.actually I woke up at 8 okay.
But I couldn't bear to stop my dream so I forced myself to continue dreaming.
(:

OMG.teaching my sister math can DIE okay.
i'm like so exasperated.
sorry.but i have no patience with little kids unless they're cute.
And if you're related to me,that's even worse.

argh,i'm like so bored now.and LKT's out at ecp-.-
and..i'm also mad at my sis cos she SPOILT my piano!!!
idk how she did it.
But she said she played with the electrical socket-.-.-.-.-
and now my piano won't work and my piano exam so soon-.-
and my mom is SO gonna kill her.
piano eh.mine's the electrical type.but it's not a keyboard.

i can't turn back because this road is all I'll ever have

Tuesday, May 19, 2009, 10:07 AM

oh yes and i've almost forgotten...

today kim and I saw a little boy about 4/5

that looked alot like someone!

omg.I was like..stunned out..

kim was saying,"eh!100%the same leh"

I was like,"omgomgomg!I like!I want!"

and we were kinda staring at him for more than a minute.

the rest of LKT hardly noticed and continued walking.

then the boy continued bouncing his ball..

OMG.I WANT OKAY.

then kim said,"eh!You want the original one not the fake one remember?This one is the young one."

The I was like,"IDC lah.omg.i want THAT one."

the filipino maids by the side totally heard us.

gahhhh!humiliation-.-

but it totally looked like okay.

ugh.stop thinking about it..go and sleep..

You can have the fake one then:}

goodnight.

the next time we hang out,

I will redeem myself,

My heart can rest till then.

I can;t wait to see you again.

7:16 AM

i'm starting to be able to taste freedom on my lips.
her cry beckoning.

and me answering. omgsh!a few more hours and 2009 mid-years are gonna be OFFICIALLY OVER!!! woohoo!yes! and for my results,i'd like to thank my dodobird.My lover(s).Those stupid assholes who made me realise studying was important.And most importantly,MYSELF.yes.yes.deborah has been awesome:} no lah!I wanna thank God for being with me during this trying period.Because I hardly studied.... and i'm gonna try the Mark challenge one more time. Making clarice happy:X okay.i'm going to school now for my last test(: today is a tuesday i'd remember(: let's crush the papers,scream and laugh at the %$^^*& :D

7:11 AM

YAY.YAY.YAY.
exams are over!!!
FINALLY.
and I was like damn high:DDDD
wheeeeee.
yeah.so went to my lover's house after school.
kim and I were mainly looking at some ahem pictures.
she was laughing like hyena mad.
and I was laughing with her-.-
and isaac is so disgusting.kept using his bolster to dig pisai(snot)
omg.like.ultra eew please!
omg.thank God i'm not as pretty as rachel.
*hinthint*
and I hope my darling lijun is better.
her poor eye kenna cut.
yeah lah.then my heart pain.
stupid construction worker-.-

then adjourned to lala's house to eat sushi.LOl
the sushi was meant for ytd but finished it today.
:X.and we made rice balls when seaweed ran out.
okay,i was mainly eating.the rest were making.LOL.

AND THIS IF FOR LALA TO SEE OKAY.
THERE!!THIS IS PROOF THAT DODO'S MINE OKAY.
WE'RE IN A RELATIONSHIP OKAY.
SO DON'T TRY TO SCANDAL WITH MY LOVER.
hmph!i'm just so nice that I pretend not to know.
(:

and the next one is a little obscene.BE PREPARED.

.......

......

.......

......

........

EEW.yeah.i know i look weird.LOL.was at lala's house.okay.nothing else already.bye!For tomorrow,have fun my darlings.But remember to miss me(:

omg.is it true?Or am I just thinking too much?

Monday, May 18, 2009, 12:31 AM

YESYESYES!!
tomorrow is the last paper already!!!!
and deborah is damndamndamn happy about something
YAY!omgggg!

I will miss exam time recesses..HAHAH.
hinthint!but im starting to feel a sense of freedom
sneaking into me.

totally daydreamed during chem&Emath today.
hope i'll do okay.
i keep thinking about stuff.no thanks to someone
*rolls eyes
and today.the bus 89uncle totally blew his top
at someone and starting commenting really loud in malay.
I was totally shocked cos i thought he was chinese.LOL
then he purposely jam-breaked really hard at the red light.
I was so scared he would drive into a tree to kill us.
I want to know my mid-year results before i die lorh.:X

cos when I saw your eyes.I just knew you cared.
I guess second best is all i would now from now.So i don't mind giving it a try.

Saturday, May 16, 2009, 8:18 AM

yes.so another one of those "study"dates.

but didn't really study today.LOL.went around tamp1 for the first time.

woww.yay.

and I got a fascination with the colour green.

after we bought our starbucks, went inside this shop which was really AWESOME.

Like seriously,so much green.And dodo became so affected by me please.We realised alot of people were wearing green that day.Yeah.And we saw Glenn Ong and Vernetta Lopez!!!omgomg.i never knew glenn was like..so tall..and his muscles and like...the same size as my face.omggsh.

I was like"wahhhhh"

and managed to get a greennn balloon.LOL.

and dodo burst it while I was withdrawing money.

how -.-.

I was like withdrawing money.And she was hitting the balloon.And it just burst-.-.I was like "NOOOO.YOU KILLED MY BALLOON!!"

And practically kenna stunned by some korean guy.

was at some random shop at tamp1 and saw this korean boyband performing.

OMG.and this guy came on screen and I totally hit the floor with mah jaw and said"How can such a hot guy ever exist??"

I was like smiling and staring at the tv for a damn looong time.and this other random guy saw.omg.so paiseh.

Studied a little at cs and ate mee rebus.omg.like..yay.

and dodo and I talked about transparent fishballs??

LOL.really had a very long crapping.

certain things are [CENSORED].LOL

but it was damn funneh.Laughed like mad at the staircase.

omg.please dodo.go ask him lahhh.

I wanna knowww(:

And I feel abominably fat.

I NEED to lose weight.

okay.bye.

oh and

I LOVE THE LITTLE TELESCOPE MY SIS GAVE ME.

it's ahemahem.useful.

woww.i missed you so.and idk why

Friday, May 15, 2009, 8:36 AM

OMG.yay.new blogskin!!!:D
I wanted to find one with boxes..
:Dand i did!!yay.
bye.

maybe i won't think so much about you when i'm with ___

7:20 AM

eew.certain people freak me out.TOTALLY.
Like you're so desperate to know girls.
OMG.go look at someone your own age please..

and seriously,you're the dumb type.
I don't like the dumb type UNDERSTAND.
omg.you probably don't understand what im typing anyway.
-.-

i have enough problems already.
I don't need problem#7864853:PERVERTIC STALKER.
ugh.please:X.
sometimes some people just have such ridiculously
low EQs that they just don't get you.
you won't get anything free from me you get it.

3:01 AM

yeah.yeah.I know my lips look damn FAT there.

ahhhh.save me!!exams are draining me of energy.

It's like a really weird feeling.Like I'm viewing my own life from a third person's perspective.Not my own.And I don't feel like I'm living my life.urgh nevermind.I know I sound crappy.

But everything has been generally quite smooth

except Emath i guess

bleah.

Still have monday and tuesday to face though.

chem,Emath(p2)and lit.

I just wanna drench myself in rain and shake it all off.

During that process,GET OUT OF MY MIND.

I feel so.so.replaceble.Like my existence doesn't matter.

argh.whatever.i shouldn't care.I already have someone by

my side.

anyway,watched kungfu hustle to de-stress

I have no idea how such a stupid show can capture

my attention.

study date tmr with dodo again.yay.

:/.

if you could only see me now.

i don't know what you would think,but,you know what.

it matters to me.

Monday, May 11, 2009, 6:36 AM

OMG!!!
I LOVE MY DARLING DODOBIRD!!
had a study date today at t2 airport.
no picturees here.
should all be on fb.
dodo will do the sad sad task of uploading and tagging

anyway,met her at tanah merah to go t2.
managed to get a seat at mac.
ohmahbeolwf.
had not eaten mac in like 8764763years.
deborah likes curraye ssauce(:
eh.we really managed to study leh
:DDDDDDD.
for close to four hours.
yay.deborah has conquered geog!
and i feel so much smarter noww:}
seriously,dodo is getting more and more influenced
by me.yay.she's almost as retarded.
but she's definitely dumber:}}}

went to t3 for a break from mugging.
lol.we were pretending that the skytrain was
a rollar coaster.
the girl standing beside us was like..-.-ing us
HAHAHA.WHO CARES?!!
i went like."wheeeeeeee"
camwhoreddd at some weird place.

OHYES!and when we went to the toilet,
there was this malay guy standing outside.
when we were about to take a photo from the toilet,
we heard some ahemaehm.weird sounds.
the man was "poooh eh!!save me...oh yee ohh yee ohh."
idk whatever it was.
but i started laughing like mad.
i tell you ah...confirm he heard.
LOL.we were pretty loud.
and he continued for quite awhile.
i think he was just probably fooling around or something.
LOL!!

I really feel so much smarter.
yay.
the math stuff.i think i kinda got it.
:DDDDDDDDDD
thanks dodobird.
but remember,you're stilla dumbdumb:}
but i love that.

Saturday, May 9, 2009, 11:36 PM

hellohellohello:D
sermon was real good today:}
pastor aaron talked about the end times.
which are,in fact,pretty near.
I paid attention.yay.

:}}}}}}}}}
went home earlier cos needed to study.
LOL.and im blogging now-.-
dodo is really gonna enjoy herself today.
humph.nevermind.
eye candie will be on tues.see you then dear:}

ILOVETALKINGTOMYDARLINGDODOBIRD!
she called and we talked for damn long.
these days,im really getting closer and closer to her.
:}and she's such a great listener:D
aww.dodo!are you touched??(:
thanks ah.and sorry that i kept laughing in 75%
of the convo.LOL.

and to my dearest mom.
HAPPYMOTHER'SDAY!!!
wow..getting old.lol.
she asked me what I was getting her.
I said "something cliche.I like roses.I'll get you a rose."
but she said she preferred practical things.
I was like..hah?!then I dont get you anything okeye?
Im also saving money.*bigbigsmile*
LOL.and im really so mean.
I didn't get her anything.
hah.

okay.will be on hiatus from tmr.
hmm...i wonder if I can keep myself away from the computer.
LOL.
okay.bye

3:32 AM

guess I'll be MIA for a little while really soon.

my exams are starting this coming wed!!

first papers are ss and Emath.

my math!!how???

-.-okeye nevermind.

wed-ss&Emath(p1)

thur-geog&Amath

fri-phy&lit(p1)

mon-chem7Emath(p2)

tues-lit(p2)

eh??over so soon??

LOL.I can't imagine how my whole

life can actually be depended on these few days.

I haven't been revising much.seriously.

ahhh.no motivation.

besides not being a road-sweeper when i grow up.

-.-.

my math and science papers are what im really

worried about.

and humanity papers are always lacking in time allocation.

i guess sec3 life is not coming along really well.

doodadoodaroo.

life's like that:/

there's not enough time.

Thursday, May 7, 2009, 1:33 AM

12:18 AM

hi.i'm in school now.

having it lesson urgh.

and deborah no likey the school keyboard.

so different from my home laptop-.-

found a ballet pic on the computer..

deborah like!

wow.im such a queen at complaining(:

I LOVE MAVIS.

she's helping me with EVERYTHING while im on msn and fb:}

she's such a nice person.LOLOLOL.

im bored.

computer language is something that I just can't click with

please.html?i'll say"huh???"

Mavis says "I feel hungry. Want to eat Deborah."

okay.points up*that was TOTALLY not said by me.

I went to the toilet and came back with that.-.-

whatever.you'll like me.full of lipids and fatty acids(:

and I KNOW dodo loves me alot righht now.seriously alot.

Because of the wonderful thing that I did for her.

:D.

kay.bye??

bye lah

Wednesday, May 6, 2009, 6:55 AM

hello.
im bored.
managed to dig up some pictures that I had
from a very very lonnng time ago(:

just bored.wondering about tmr's possible it lesson which is practically USELESS.-.-but it's compulsory.Yet,we haven't even been informed about it recentlt.I'm such a good student that I remembered.:D.ahhhhh.I just did something SUPER UBER NICE for my dodobird(:.I'm pretty sure she'll love me evn more so now(:

ohmy!yay!

and facebook is getting boring??ohshiatt!it's 10 already?!I thought it was still uber early or something.whatever.boredom..argh!BYE.dont miss me too much(:

3:39 AM

hie.been very busy lately.
and...I HAVEN'T BEEN REVISING!
urgh.i needddddd!!><

mrsgoh just taught triangles and just finished it
mrsloh just taught chpt8 today and finished it
msnonis just finished light today and started on kinematics
-.-
everyone is rushing for the last few minutes
left before mid years start.
haiz..idk what to say.
i suckk!
C5 for higher chinese.
eew.i feel so disappointed.
okay.nevermind.not saying here.

loads and loads of revision to catch up on.
i wanna DIE.tyvm.
but I know the Lord will always be there for me
when im down.
so I must have faith:/

guess what.I rushed so much today
for my piano lesson and then,while on the mrt,
received a msg from my cher saying lesson's cancelled cos
she's sick and does not eant to spread germs.
-.-
so...at least I reached home earlier to do homework.
i've been a good girl okay.

woww.the resemblance??idc.im happyyy

Monday, May 4, 2009, 5:35 AM

oh no.oh no.oh no.
I'm in deep deep deep deep deep shit.

how do you get away from someone?
how do you get away from someone who's like..a stalker?
how do you get away from a weird retarded old man?
how do you get away from some old pervert?
how do you escape?
how can you ever get away when
marriage is on his mind?

DODOBIRD!I NEED YOUR HELP!IDK WHAT TO DO.EVERYWHERE I AM,HE'S THERE.and now.he knows where I live.what can I do?Now I'm scared of going home alone.WHAT CAN I DO???????????

stupid pervert!leave me alone!!!!
you stupid lowlife!!

4:54 AM

mid years are not over.
but with one extra week's grace,i think I can afford to blog?
:}
got back ss test today:}}}}}
11/12!!!oh yay!!really happy about that.
an improvement(:
and got my fingers crossed for eng and chi mid years.
idk what to blog about..hmm
alotta things are already over??
LOL.
okay..I can show you something wonderful.
*points down!

never seen befor righht?
$10 000 okeye.no kidding.
and look how puny my hand looks with it.
:D.I can never imagine that much money in my hand..
wowwww:}

im not doing well for sciences and math.
argh.
deborah no likey D:
nevermind.I need to revise.
I need to but I dont want to.LOL
and my mid years start later than everyone else.
13may-.-
ahhhhhh.

today's laughing was fun.
how healthy:}